It's been long since i've blogged! I've to admit that i'm busy with my homework and kinda lazy to blog you know. "Efforts today, Rewards tomorrow." If you believe in this, then you'll succeed because i did! haha. EOY is around the corner and i can't seems to concentrate and i feel terrible. Why? Cause i had no idea where to start from. i need a timetable. As a matter of fact, i think i'll do it right after i'm done blogging.^-^
Okay, how's life treating me? HAHA, i don't even want to talk about it. It's weird for the most part. I've decided to mug for history first, knowing it won't kill me instantaneously. After which i would start on my
combined sciences. *shivers* I know it's a abit too late to be starting revisions now but hey, it's better late than never! (okay,i'm trying to console myself) The unfortunate part of all this is the fact that i'm lack of sleep. zZZZZz
Very random i know.
My mood is like weather, sometimes i'm sunny, sometimes i'm cloudy and sometimes i'm rainy. i wish i could be as friendly as others, but you know... i need alot alot alot more courages. do you know how hurtful it can be to see you flirting with other girls? I knew it was over, when we chatted for like less than 20 sentences on facebook . Now i know i have to move on, but i just fucking don't know how to. Do you know how hard it was for me to pretend that we're stranger? I feel like a bitch when other guys text me and i ignored them. Why? i'm waiting for the day when you'll text me a "hello." That would probably make my day, seriously. Congratulation, you've managed to make me feel like a worthless piece of shit again. Would you like an award for that?
But nothing could change the fact that he doesn't give a damn about this. I've to stay positive and find a way to walk out of this shit. Hang on, hang on. This suck, but i've to hang on.
K i'm done with this short post. Pray hard nothing goes wrong tomorrow in school, always monday blue. kkbb what a cozy night to sleep with my blanket.